Rainbowfest by Manicho
First of all, I want to thank all of you who are tuning in to these posts.
I find it really makes a difference to be blogging to actual people and not just into anonymous cyberspace.
And one of the side effects of this seems to be that I’m coming up with a LOT more ideas of things to post about…ideas that will really expand the scope of this blog.
A part of me wants to worry about whether it will all fit together cohesively, whether I’ll have to change the tag line, whether it will all come across as just too weird. But I’ve also been inspired recently just go ahead and be all of my “freaky self”, with the idea that the world isn’t going to be changed by those who “fit”, and that leaves the rest of us to do it. = >
So I’m going to explore all these expanding ideas and we’ll find out where it takes us.
Now for the colours…
(And by the way, you’ll notice the British spelling of “colours” above, which is because I’m in Canada and I’m rather fierce about our way of spelling, so I never change it even though every spell check on my computer says it’s wrong….So there.)
In the past few days something tangible has shifted inside and I”m suddenly aware of certain ways I have of responding to the world that I had never seen quite so clearly before.
The other day my husband called from work, which is just up the road from our house, and asked me to swing by and put his golf clubs in the trunk of his car outside his workplace so he could go to the driving range after his shift.
Not a huge deal, since I was on my way out anyway. But I managed to respond with a fair degree of annoyance.
I watched myself curiously in this state and, in the few days since, I’ve seen myself respond this way over and over again. Sometimes it’s more obvious and sometimes I just hide it really well and sometimes it’s not as big a reaction because I’m telling the story that it’s not as big an annoyance.
And then I realized that this way of responding is colouring my whole world!
It’s as though I’m a fish and this annoyance is my “ocean” that I breathe and swim around in all day not even realizing that I’m in it.
It’s like I’m saying all the time to myself that life is a series of annoying intrusions into my “flow”, whatever that happens to be in the moment.
And I wonder what kind of effect that’s having on the possibility of attracting opportunities and other good things into my world?
If I’m skulking around, sighing and rolling my eyes over everything unexpected that shows up in my day, I’m not really imagining that good things are right around the corner or that I would even enjoy them when they got here!
So I think it’s time to choose a different “colour” for my day.
And I’m taking my inspiration here from my wonderful yoga teacher, Maryse Thuot, who keeps encouraging us to smile into every pose. That feels like a much more gentle and joyful response to life than annoyance at everything.
I’ve been trying this on in the last couple of days. Especially at home where, let’s face it, it’s pretty easy to get into a pattern of annoyance with the people we live with everyday.
And I have to say that it is making a definite difference. When I manage to catch myself and smile instead of cringe, I’ve noticed that my energy doesn’t get drained by the “ugh” feeling I used to have. And I’m moving from one activity to another more easily.
And now I’m starting to look around to see what other patterns might be a part of my “ocean” and question those too!
So what’s colouring your world?
What are the responses, emotions, and reactions that run through your day so constantly that you don’t even notice them anymore?
And what colour would you like it to be?
I’d love to hear your comments on this. Feel free to share them below.
